Sunday, October 19, 2008

Life and Death

This week has been a bit of an interesting one. Monday the 13th I had the opportunity to attend the funeral of my dear sweet Grandpa Moon. What a man he was. From the first time I met him over 3 years ago, he has had an impact on my life. I am so grateful for him and his sweet spirit. He will be greatly missed in this life and I look forward to seeing him again in the hereafter. The service was beautiful, and it was wonderful to spend the day with my sweet Jerel, Michael and Sabrina. It was very rough day as well. Death is always a hard thing, even when it is expected and you have the knowledge that your loved one is in a better place. In attending the funeral and graveside service, it made me think about what I want at my service. And no I am not really planning on dying anytime soon, but you never know when this life will be over. And honsetly, lately I would love for my time to be cut short on this earth, I would love to be the one meeting my maker. But I know that now is not my time, I still have to much to do and learn. So in thinking about my funeral... I want a lot of music. I want Amazing Grace, I know that my Redeemer Lives, and How Great Though Art sang. I also want Ballerina Girl sang. I want the good times to be remembered. The crazy high school days and the even crazier college days, the wonderful memories with my brothers, my parents, my extended family, my friends, and my sweet Jerel, Michael and Sabrina. Originally I wanted to be cremated, but now I am not so sure. In all of the funerals I have attended, there is just a peace about being able to see the peaceful state in which the deceased loved one seems to be in.

Sunday night before the funeral, I had a complete emotional breakdown. I had no idea that I had so many emotions inside of me. It was nice to have someone to be able to talk to and share what I was feeling with. I hope and pray that this person really listened because the thoughts I shared were from my heart. This person needs to know how much I love them and how much I need them in my life. I know that I have made mistakes, but this life is to learn and grow, to make mistakes, learn from them and move on. I hope and pray that this person will forgive me and will allow me to be apart of their live, even as a friend. I will always love this person.


Tanji, Jimmy and Baby Jay! said...

I definitely don't want your life cut short! I love you!